i lay next to to you. i feel your skin. it rubs on mine and i find myself going crazy for you.
i hold you close. kiss your lips, touch your skin and i find myself falling for you.
i taste your skin, taste your lipstick, feel your eyes on me. and i find my self infatuated with you.
you are my vice. you are my fantasy .and what drives my heart to the brink of explosion.
you are all the action i need. you are my gamble. you are the one that fills my memory with winning.
you are my princess. you are my godess. you are the one that makes me feel unworthy.
i feel my mind going threw a transition. i feel my life changing with the sunrise.
i understand i throw my self in the trash before i throw a beautiful waste away.
i understand i find ways to throw myself down stairs before i will let those close to me beat me to it.
i fixate on the worst of me. and exploit it till i make my own heart bleed.
i play with my emotions to the brink of tears.
but you my dear. are the one who centers me. you my love are the one that gives me padding.
you my love are the one that complaments. you my dear are my counter part. you my dear are
the only one who can understand my fucked up mind. you my dear are the one for me and your all mine.
danny
About Me
- dwelch
- i am danny. i am a man. i like to write and think out loud. please email me or fb or create a google acount and follow and comment on my blog. it all helps with getting me out to others. thank you. love you all. b safe.
Friday, March 11, 2011
Thursday, March 3, 2011
DANNYS CORNER OF COMPLAINTS.
ollo friends. its been about a week or so. havent had much to put down on paper. i have had some good days and some bad days. been training my pitbull. she is getting it pretty fast. smart little dog. i have slipped a little on the diet. which really makes me feel like shit. i hate being this fucking weak over what i eat. i keep my water intake up and up. but fuck i cant stay away from eating like shit. i have so much envy for those who can eat healthy 24/7.
i have been such a fat ass for so long. my body craves horrible greasy shit. i get heartburn so easy these days from all the crap i put into my body. but not even a week of eating better it goes away. one would think that would be enough to keep me strait. but fuck no!!!!here i am on a two day off diet bender and burbing out pure fire.fuck my life.
i guess the best i can do is wake up in the morning and get back to a routine. i have a trainer at the gym i go to. but fuck dude is always busy or i am busy. feels like a waste of money. this week has also been a gymless one. somedays i just couldnt get the motivation. other days i have been a little busy. so all that in one tortilla makes me feel like shit. i guess i just need to get out of this funk. and the only way to do that is to just fucking doing.
i know i have used more curse words in this post than others its just where my mind is. im not in a good place tonight. been sick for a week. think i have alergies and its giving me a head ache every time i have a bout of coughing. wow. i am just really complaining today. i hope this is not the worst thing i ever put up here. if it is. i dont appologize. but thanks for getting this far. i am at the end of this now. and i feel like just writting nothing. but ill end on this.
the sharks are on a seven game win streak. they are playing the redwings tonight. if they win they will move into a game behind them for second place in the west. i love hockey. well see ya next time on dannys corner of complaints..
danny
i have been such a fat ass for so long. my body craves horrible greasy shit. i get heartburn so easy these days from all the crap i put into my body. but not even a week of eating better it goes away. one would think that would be enough to keep me strait. but fuck no!!!!here i am on a two day off diet bender and burbing out pure fire.fuck my life.
i guess the best i can do is wake up in the morning and get back to a routine. i have a trainer at the gym i go to. but fuck dude is always busy or i am busy. feels like a waste of money. this week has also been a gymless one. somedays i just couldnt get the motivation. other days i have been a little busy. so all that in one tortilla makes me feel like shit. i guess i just need to get out of this funk. and the only way to do that is to just fucking doing.
i know i have used more curse words in this post than others its just where my mind is. im not in a good place tonight. been sick for a week. think i have alergies and its giving me a head ache every time i have a bout of coughing. wow. i am just really complaining today. i hope this is not the worst thing i ever put up here. if it is. i dont appologize. but thanks for getting this far. i am at the end of this now. and i feel like just writting nothing. but ill end on this.
the sharks are on a seven game win streak. they are playing the redwings tonight. if they win they will move into a game behind them for second place in the west. i love hockey. well see ya next time on dannys corner of complaints..
danny
Friday, February 25, 2011
ACCIDENTAL GOLDEN SHOWER....
so i started eating better. and the one thing i do know about eating better is that drinking a massive amount of water is never a bad thing. so over the last week or so i have been taking in about a gallon of water or more a day. it has helped drop a few pounds which i am really proud of. still there is one really big set back from drinking that much water in one day. no it is not the problem of always being crazy hydrated. is it the need to urinate. and the massive pressure it puts on your bladder.
i drive a truck for a living and sometimes there is just no place to go between stops. i have never been the kind of guy to just go on the side of the road. mainly because i am way to self conscious of the size of my self when urinating. i don't want some one to see and snicker. i feel its every mans greatest fear unless you are a porn star.
with all that being said. i was driving to day. and i had consumed about half a gallon of the jug i was drinking out of when the urge hit! i was driving from galt to acampo. which really is not that far at all, but when you have half a gallon of water in you. and your bladder is to the max it seems like 100 fucking miles. usually its ok though. once i get to the store i just rush in and use the restroom, well not today. for some fucked up act of karma the door was locked and the dude at the counter did not have a key. at this point my life if at a stand still.
i proceeded to break the pallet of shit down and hand truck it into this store. trying my best to not think about the massive pressure on my bladder. i found my self not able to stand still for fear of leaking. i finish the stop,collecting a signature and loading the equipment back on the truck without spilling a drop. but the urge is there. it felt as if ralphie may was sitting on my bladder,dancing around was not going to suffice for to long. i ran through all my options at the time.
1)run to the side of the building and let the golden shower begin. (inner voice) no way man you can just piss in the open like that, someone will get offended.
2)piss in the back of the truck the box is designed to extract excess water any way. "no.how weird would it look to an out side person. some dude just pissing in the back of a trailer.
3)drive some place close in the little town and let loose. and that is what i did.
i drove around the block to the end of a dead end street. between two back yards poped on the air brakes jumped out of the truck as fast as possible..but not before losing the battle of containment.
yes i peed on my self. not a noticeable about thank god. just enough to know that i have shamed my self. enough to know that this would constitute embarrassments. the rest of the flow went as planned. and so here i am today. letting you all know that daniel welch peed himself today. i am what i always feared i would be. a pants wetter.
hope you enjoyed my embarrassment.
love danny
i drive a truck for a living and sometimes there is just no place to go between stops. i have never been the kind of guy to just go on the side of the road. mainly because i am way to self conscious of the size of my self when urinating. i don't want some one to see and snicker. i feel its every mans greatest fear unless you are a porn star.
with all that being said. i was driving to day. and i had consumed about half a gallon of the jug i was drinking out of when the urge hit! i was driving from galt to acampo. which really is not that far at all, but when you have half a gallon of water in you. and your bladder is to the max it seems like 100 fucking miles. usually its ok though. once i get to the store i just rush in and use the restroom, well not today. for some fucked up act of karma the door was locked and the dude at the counter did not have a key. at this point my life if at a stand still.
i proceeded to break the pallet of shit down and hand truck it into this store. trying my best to not think about the massive pressure on my bladder. i found my self not able to stand still for fear of leaking. i finish the stop,collecting a signature and loading the equipment back on the truck without spilling a drop. but the urge is there. it felt as if ralphie may was sitting on my bladder,dancing around was not going to suffice for to long. i ran through all my options at the time.
1)run to the side of the building and let the golden shower begin. (inner voice) no way man you can just piss in the open like that, someone will get offended.
2)piss in the back of the truck the box is designed to extract excess water any way. "no.how weird would it look to an out side person. some dude just pissing in the back of a trailer.
3)drive some place close in the little town and let loose. and that is what i did.
i drove around the block to the end of a dead end street. between two back yards poped on the air brakes jumped out of the truck as fast as possible..but not before losing the battle of containment.
yes i peed on my self. not a noticeable about thank god. just enough to know that i have shamed my self. enough to know that this would constitute embarrassments. the rest of the flow went as planned. and so here i am today. letting you all know that daniel welch peed himself today. i am what i always feared i would be. a pants wetter.
hope you enjoyed my embarrassment.
love danny
Thursday, February 24, 2011
SALT IN AN OPEN WOUND!!!!
its morning time on the Internet...I'm up. its 325 in the morning. I'm enjoying some coffee. and about to enjoy some wonderful instant strawberries and cream oatmeal. it has been a regiment of mine for a while. it has really helped with my energy and moods for the day. nothing like have energy to be happy. yay....
so i have really been thinking about things in my life lately. with this blog i feel i really get to be myself. and put things out there that eat at me night at day. the kind of things that i only think to myself when I'm around other people. you know like at a party and that's what this is to me a big party that I'm the life of. what a bummer if I'm the life of this party. shit....maybe not the best way to phrase it.
one of the biggest things that really get to me is my jealousy. i am so jealous of the people in my life. it seems that every ones got it all figures out and I'm sitting on the side lines with my thumb in my mouth. i have always had this feeling that everyone is looking at me and feeling sorry for me. feeling sorry that i have transformed my body into a round ball of glutenous fat. sorry for me that i still rent. sorry for me that all i do is drive a truck for a living.
i feel this way only for the reason that i am very self conscious of the situation i am in. and its the way i feel about my self. i look at my siblings for instant. they both have awesome houses. nice cars. jobs that make what i do very insignificant. when we all get together on rare occasions, and work is being talked about i have nothing interesting to add to the conversation. who the fuck wants to hear about driving for three hours. i don't even like thinking about it much less talking about it. every now and the i have an awesome story of some bum trying to steal empty cans for recycling from another bum.and thats its. really pathetic i know!!!
still for the most part it kinda sucks having trying to live up to what has been burned into my brain as the American dream. i have some parts. i some how found a women that would marry me. and some how stomach the process of having a child with me!!! it seems to end there. like i said i am a very jealous person. its not that i don't want to see the ones i love fail,or not success. its just i want to be on the same level as them. i fear i am not.its more that i am on the same elevator but going to the mail room while they go to their high rise window view offices. this isn't the place where i say that i am the bigger person and over it. i am not. i love my siblings to death. and always will be there when they need something moved or ever want to talk. which sadly is way to far and in between. this is salt in an open wound for me. i hate having to admit that i am so weak and lacking in confidence that i am jealous of people that i love unconditionally.
i have laid this out. it has been burning in my gut for so long. it feels good to let it all out. and to my siblings please take this as it is. my brain needed to get it out. my heart on my sleeve, this is not a slam on you guys. you are doing so well in life. and i do root for the both of you to keep thriving. me being jealous is just that.strait stupid. i love you all. please take in consideration it is now 416 in the morning. i could go on for ever. but work awaits.
love you all. and b safe
danny
so i have really been thinking about things in my life lately. with this blog i feel i really get to be myself. and put things out there that eat at me night at day. the kind of things that i only think to myself when I'm around other people. you know like at a party and that's what this is to me a big party that I'm the life of. what a bummer if I'm the life of this party. shit....maybe not the best way to phrase it.
one of the biggest things that really get to me is my jealousy. i am so jealous of the people in my life. it seems that every ones got it all figures out and I'm sitting on the side lines with my thumb in my mouth. i have always had this feeling that everyone is looking at me and feeling sorry for me. feeling sorry that i have transformed my body into a round ball of glutenous fat. sorry for me that i still rent. sorry for me that all i do is drive a truck for a living.
i feel this way only for the reason that i am very self conscious of the situation i am in. and its the way i feel about my self. i look at my siblings for instant. they both have awesome houses. nice cars. jobs that make what i do very insignificant. when we all get together on rare occasions, and work is being talked about i have nothing interesting to add to the conversation. who the fuck wants to hear about driving for three hours. i don't even like thinking about it much less talking about it. every now and the i have an awesome story of some bum trying to steal empty cans for recycling from another bum.and thats its. really pathetic i know!!!
still for the most part it kinda sucks having trying to live up to what has been burned into my brain as the American dream. i have some parts. i some how found a women that would marry me. and some how stomach the process of having a child with me!!! it seems to end there. like i said i am a very jealous person. its not that i don't want to see the ones i love fail,or not success. its just i want to be on the same level as them. i fear i am not.its more that i am on the same elevator but going to the mail room while they go to their high rise window view offices. this isn't the place where i say that i am the bigger person and over it. i am not. i love my siblings to death. and always will be there when they need something moved or ever want to talk. which sadly is way to far and in between. this is salt in an open wound for me. i hate having to admit that i am so weak and lacking in confidence that i am jealous of people that i love unconditionally.
i have laid this out. it has been burning in my gut for so long. it feels good to let it all out. and to my siblings please take this as it is. my brain needed to get it out. my heart on my sleeve, this is not a slam on you guys. you are doing so well in life. and i do root for the both of you to keep thriving. me being jealous is just that.strait stupid. i love you all. please take in consideration it is now 416 in the morning. i could go on for ever. but work awaits.
love you all. and b safe
danny
Monday, February 21, 2011
ITS GODS WORD......I GUESS...
so back to work today. not a bad day. not very long either. i had some product to take up north. i don't have a lot of entrainment in my truck. usually just my ipod and my mind. i was on the road by 540 this morning heading up the boring real estate that is i5 north.
as i was enjoying the new posted podcast of sklarbro country. that stars the twin brother duo of randy and Jason sklar. with their insane pop culture references, and impeccable timing for saying the same thing at once. i happened to look over to the side of the road. and what do i see. a camper truck. you know one of those hillbilly deluxe motels attached to a ford pickup truck. I'm thinking pre Winnebago years. or dude was just to damn cheap or rent was just to damn high.
all of the white trashiness aside, what caught my attention was the humongous sign that was stapled to the side of this fortitude of inbreading. its read as follows...Saturday is the true sabbath. Sunday is the mark of the beast!!!!!!..
i read this and thought "WHAT THE FUCK.I NEED TO RESEARCH THIS." and i did. but i really didn't find much on it. i understand different religions observe the Sabbath on different days. Jews on sat. Muslims on Friday. and Christians on Sunday. so with this information i have to think he was just a very pissed off Jew that wanted all Christan's to feel his wrath..
with further thinking on this talking point. i try to put my self in this guys shoes. for one i have a sneaking suspension that he isn't all that stable. seeing that his home is a trailer with out a trailer park. and proclaiming something that lets be honest no body gives a shit about. i realize well fuck he is every one else just trying to put a voice to it. we all have shit we care about that the majority of people around us could care less about. and the only reason i see him as crazy is this huge sign. i am still very interested in what his thinking behind this is.
my only hope is that he isn't some angle sent down from god to try and educate the mindless drones that have shunned god and his word. and i hope that i never heave to meet this dude face to face, i have no filter i would be an out rite dick and not ask in a nice way what he is talking about. I'm sure i would ask him what the last email he got from god was about. i would want to know if god talks to him threw his bowel movements. i would defiantly need to know if angels really don't have sexual organs. well any way. i guess the point of this is. try to be as lazy as you can be on Saturday and Sunday that way you don't offend any body. :)
blank you very much for reading.
love danny
as i was enjoying the new posted podcast of sklarbro country. that stars the twin brother duo of randy and Jason sklar. with their insane pop culture references, and impeccable timing for saying the same thing at once. i happened to look over to the side of the road. and what do i see. a camper truck. you know one of those hillbilly deluxe motels attached to a ford pickup truck. I'm thinking pre Winnebago years. or dude was just to damn cheap or rent was just to damn high.
all of the white trashiness aside, what caught my attention was the humongous sign that was stapled to the side of this fortitude of inbreading. its read as follows...Saturday is the true sabbath. Sunday is the mark of the beast!!!!!!..
i read this and thought "WHAT THE FUCK.I NEED TO RESEARCH THIS." and i did. but i really didn't find much on it. i understand different religions observe the Sabbath on different days. Jews on sat. Muslims on Friday. and Christians on Sunday. so with this information i have to think he was just a very pissed off Jew that wanted all Christan's to feel his wrath..
with further thinking on this talking point. i try to put my self in this guys shoes. for one i have a sneaking suspension that he isn't all that stable. seeing that his home is a trailer with out a trailer park. and proclaiming something that lets be honest no body gives a shit about. i realize well fuck he is every one else just trying to put a voice to it. we all have shit we care about that the majority of people around us could care less about. and the only reason i see him as crazy is this huge sign. i am still very interested in what his thinking behind this is.
my only hope is that he isn't some angle sent down from god to try and educate the mindless drones that have shunned god and his word. and i hope that i never heave to meet this dude face to face, i have no filter i would be an out rite dick and not ask in a nice way what he is talking about. I'm sure i would ask him what the last email he got from god was about. i would want to know if god talks to him threw his bowel movements. i would defiantly need to know if angels really don't have sexual organs. well any way. i guess the point of this is. try to be as lazy as you can be on Saturday and Sunday that way you don't offend any body. :)
blank you very much for reading.
love danny
Sunday, February 20, 2011
PLEASE HELP ME LOSE WIEGHT.
OK this is for all the healthy people in my life. i need help with knowing what to eat. and what not to eat. i know sugar is really bad. and carbs can be counter productive for losing weight. i have a family Reunion in a few months. and last time it was embarrassing. every time i saw someone that i hadn't seen in a while all i got was "wow you sure are fat these days" i don't want that to happen again.
i know its fucked up that that's all family sees, but lets be honest old people lose their sense of being nice after so long. any way enough of my pussy feelings. healthy friends i really need your help on the food thing. please LET me know what i can do. whats good. what's bad.
i got a trainer at my local gym to help with my work out schedule. in the next three months i am hoping to lose some weight and be respectable for this family reunion. i am also doing this for my self too. i need to be healthy for my family. i need to make sure i don't fall dead at thirty because my fat ass couldn't lose weight. also when the Chinese come to take us over i need to be able to run a little bit with out being winded. those little bastards are fast as fuck. so please i need your input on this one healthy people. whats good for lunches at work. i drive a truck so i don't get to heat things up or keep them cold. and dinner. dinner is big for me. i need good suggestions. because after three weeks of chicken and brown rise i need something else. thanks love you all b safe.
i know its fucked up that that's all family sees, but lets be honest old people lose their sense of being nice after so long. any way enough of my pussy feelings. healthy friends i really need your help on the food thing. please LET me know what i can do. whats good. what's bad.
i got a trainer at my local gym to help with my work out schedule. in the next three months i am hoping to lose some weight and be respectable for this family reunion. i am also doing this for my self too. i need to be healthy for my family. i need to make sure i don't fall dead at thirty because my fat ass couldn't lose weight. also when the Chinese come to take us over i need to be able to run a little bit with out being winded. those little bastards are fast as fuck. so please i need your input on this one healthy people. whats good for lunches at work. i drive a truck so i don't get to heat things up or keep them cold. and dinner. dinner is big for me. i need good suggestions. because after three weeks of chicken and brown rise i need something else. thanks love you all b safe.
SUNDAY MORNING.
i was watching the onion news on ifc today. i love that damn show. the website is awesome too. you should really check it out. and if you don’t get ifc well fuck you. lol.
the story i want to talk about i will post at the bottom of this post. they did a story about a congressmen who fell in love with a horse. but was still outraged at the thought of gay marriage .he calls it un constitutional. got i love this shit.
as I’m watching this i am also going through withdrawals from chew. Fuck i hate the feeling. i had coffee and breakfast but no chew. and now I’m really irritated. i went to olg with my wife and kid for a knights of Columbus breakfast, which if you’re in west Sacramento every third Sunday i think it is. There is a five dollar all you can eat breakfast that kicks ass. Pancake’s. And all the fixings.
during this whole things. i had the plan to hit the gym directly after the breakfast to work it off. then out of the where my wife changed the plan on me. at the time my craving was at an all-time high. so i was so pissed. can you believe that. Pissed because i had to watch my son. this is the part of addiction i can’t stand. i hate getting really pissed about nothing. but I’m working on it.
so the wife is out shopping for things for Daniel’s bathtizim. im ganna chill at home it is hockey day in America today. there is a lot of good hockey on tv. if you aren’t into hockey i suggest you get into it! best sport on the face of this earth.
lol. the story they are running right now on the onion is about a school jock, who goes into school and kills an outcast. and the jock is held up as a hero for killing a weird out cast kid. lol. damn i love this damn show. check it out here’s a video for your pleasure. thanks for reading.
ok i know i said i was ganna have an onion video up. but it is not working so smooth for me now. verry sorry but please go to the website. look around and support. once again thank you verry much for reading.
love you all. b save.
danny theonion.com
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